Today was weigh in day!!!

I weighed in this morning and I am down SEVEN pounds!!! Woohooooo!!! I know it was some water weight, but TOM is here and it still showed a 7 pound loss. I can't wait until next week's weigh in!!!

I am using http://www.fitday.com/ to track my food. My goal is to be under 50% carbs each day, but that doesn't happen most days. I imagine as I keep going and discovering better snacks etc that I will get that under control.

I am on my way to Onederland!!!

6 days

Tomorrow is weigh in day!!! I have been back on the wagon for 6 days now. I have stayed under 1800 calories all but one day. The day I went over I went over my calories with protein and not junk food so that is sort of a victory. LOL

It is that TOM so I am hoping it won't affect the scale that much. I am going to continue to drink my water and stay on plan. I am going to try to do some on purpose exercise today. A few days this past week I very BRIEFLY did some upper body/arm exercises with my dumbells just to do something.

I'll be back tomorrow with weigh in results.

I'm Back

I'm back. I think for good this time. I think I have finally "snapped." I decided last night that I can't continue to live like this. I decided that even though it is hard and grueling that it will be worth it. I didn't get this way overnight so for me to expect fast results is just unrealistic. I have to face it, it is going to take me a while. I talk to my kids about how anything worth having is worth working for yet here I am still fat year after year. WOW.

Last night I logged in to 3 Fat Chicks On a Diet forums that I have previously visited. I am committed to checking in there everyday for support, encouragement and inspiration. I also updated my stats at www.fitday.com and will be tracking progress there as well. I weighed this morning and did all my measurements.

Weight 257.4
Bust: 54 in
Waist: 45.5 in
Hips: 44 in
Upper Arms: 16 in ea.
BMI (Body Mass Index) 41.5

My target calories is 1733. I am not going to be doing any formal exercise yet because when I was vigorously walking before I was coming home feeling like I was starving and then I would binge. My "exercise" goals right now are to just MOVE MORE. Instead of asking someone to hand me something I am going to go get it. I can go up and down my stairs, take the dogs for short walks around the block, do sit ups etc. Once I get a grip on my food choices and see some weight come off then I will look for more formal outlets of exercise. I am also going this approach because I know from experience when I try to make too many changes at once that I set myself up for failure.

The other thing that is so important is that I eat more frequently. Since I am type 2 diabetic it isn't good for me to go 6 hours without eating. I need to eat about every two hours to keep my blood sugar steady and not put stress on my organs. I tend to get really busy with the kids throughout the day or caught up in working on something and before I know it the day has gone by and I haven't eaten since breakfast. Not good, because then I gorge and tend to eat all night.

I will be weighing in every Wednesday and will be checking my measurements about every 2-3 weeks for now.

Hiatus

I have been on a diet hiatus. I am just overwhelmed with life, short on funds for really investing in products and foods that could help. I have to make do with what I have.

I have been intermittently walking with friends, but haven't been all week. I haven't had that "snap" happen and I don't know what it is going to take. I hate being overweight. I hate running short of breath. I hate not being able to do physically exerting activities with the kids. I hate the way I look in clothes and naked. So, WHY can't I just get disciplined?

I guess when I say I am desperate, I am just not desperate enough. I am praying for God to just put in me a desire to eat healthy and remove my desire for unhealthy cravings and to remove my desire to overeat. I saw God remove the desire to drink from my husband after 12 years of praying for that. If God can do that, then surely he can remove from me the desire to overeat!

Stuck

I am still 253 pounds. I am angry at myself because I know I am not playing by the rules, yet I am hoping for a change on the scale. I have only been walking about 3 times a week and I haven't been tracking my food very well.

One thing I know is that I need to eat less carbs. I am addicted to carbs. It makes up most of my diet. I can't live on fruit and eggs. LOL I am going to make out a menu ahead of time and then follow it because I know most of the time my bad choices are because I wait until I am hungry to figure out what I am going to eat. So at that point it is about whatever is quickest and I am not creative when I feel "starved." I also need to make sure I don't get to that "starving" feeling. As a diabetic I need to keep my blood sugar steady through the day and having extreme highs and lows is not good.

So, my goal for this next 7 days is to eat by a menu with measured and calculated portions. I will also continue to walk at the track.

Until next time......

3 Pound Gain

I am back from my business trip. I exercised officially one time while there. I swam 20 laps on the rooftop pool of the hotel. It was awesome. The rest of the week I did alot of walking, but it wasn't get your heart rate up, exercise walking. It was my feet hurt from these heels and I am exhausted walking.

I did the best I could with food considering what I had to choose from. Actually, that isn't entirely true. I gave in to cookies for dessert one night.

I didn't walk but once or twice the whole week before leaving and I have gone over my calories many times so that combined with my trip accounts for the three pound gain. So now I only have a net loss of 7 pounds for over a month. Pardon my french, but that SUCKS. I am so frustrated. I also heard this week and I don't know for sure if it is true, but I heard that when you consistently get less than 8 hours of sleep per night that your body stores fat because it is in survival mode. I only get about 4-6 hours of sleep per night. I would LOVE to get 8 and I am really trying the last few nights. I got 8 hours Saturday night, but only 6 on Sunday night and only 7 last night.

I have to admit I am really feeling in despair over my weight and my lack of energy and my lack of "will power" to always choose right. Some days are good, but then I swear the next day I feel like I am starving. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? Why do I always feel hungry? I feel like crying.

Yesterday my calories were 1830. Today they are already over 1000 and it is only 3:20. I want to go walking tonight, but honestly I feel like I am wasting my time. My legs are so sore when I am done and I am getting NO results. Yesterday morning I did a 20 minute Richard Simmons video that got my heart rate up for brief time and I sweated really well. I just want some noticeable results. Is that too much to ask for? I know I have a really bad attitude about this today.

I didn't quit!

I intended to update by now, but the week has flown by. I have not weighed in again because it is that "time of the month" and I don't want to get discouraged if I haven't lost anything if you know what I mean. So, I am waiting until said time passes. Because of said time, I have been having cravings and it has been a really HARD week. I have struggled with writing things down because I have been doing more "grazing." Also, I only walked 3 times in the last week because we have all had things going on. I am hoping to walk tonight, even if I have to go alone.

I am about to go out of town on Tuesday for 5 days and I am anxious about that. I am bringing a case of water with me and plenty of healthy snacks to help keep me on track. The hotel probably has a fitness center so I am hoping to hit the treadmill whenever possible or maybe just swimming laps.

If I decide to weigh in Monday then I will be here with an update, otherwise it may not be until I return from my trip. Until next time.....