Hiatus

I have been on a diet hiatus. I am just overwhelmed with life, short on funds for really investing in products and foods that could help. I have to make do with what I have.

I have been intermittently walking with friends, but haven't been all week. I haven't had that "snap" happen and I don't know what it is going to take. I hate being overweight. I hate running short of breath. I hate not being able to do physically exerting activities with the kids. I hate the way I look in clothes and naked. So, WHY can't I just get disciplined?

I guess when I say I am desperate, I am just not desperate enough. I am praying for God to just put in me a desire to eat healthy and remove my desire for unhealthy cravings and to remove my desire to overeat. I saw God remove the desire to drink from my husband after 12 years of praying for that. If God can do that, then surely he can remove from me the desire to overeat!

Stuck

I am still 253 pounds. I am angry at myself because I know I am not playing by the rules, yet I am hoping for a change on the scale. I have only been walking about 3 times a week and I haven't been tracking my food very well.

One thing I know is that I need to eat less carbs. I am addicted to carbs. It makes up most of my diet. I can't live on fruit and eggs. LOL I am going to make out a menu ahead of time and then follow it because I know most of the time my bad choices are because I wait until I am hungry to figure out what I am going to eat. So at that point it is about whatever is quickest and I am not creative when I feel "starved." I also need to make sure I don't get to that "starving" feeling. As a diabetic I need to keep my blood sugar steady through the day and having extreme highs and lows is not good.

So, my goal for this next 7 days is to eat by a menu with measured and calculated portions. I will also continue to walk at the track.

Until next time......