3 Pound Gain

I am back from my business trip. I exercised officially one time while there. I swam 20 laps on the rooftop pool of the hotel. It was awesome. The rest of the week I did alot of walking, but it wasn't get your heart rate up, exercise walking. It was my feet hurt from these heels and I am exhausted walking.

I did the best I could with food considering what I had to choose from. Actually, that isn't entirely true. I gave in to cookies for dessert one night.

I didn't walk but once or twice the whole week before leaving and I have gone over my calories many times so that combined with my trip accounts for the three pound gain. So now I only have a net loss of 7 pounds for over a month. Pardon my french, but that SUCKS. I am so frustrated. I also heard this week and I don't know for sure if it is true, but I heard that when you consistently get less than 8 hours of sleep per night that your body stores fat because it is in survival mode. I only get about 4-6 hours of sleep per night. I would LOVE to get 8 and I am really trying the last few nights. I got 8 hours Saturday night, but only 6 on Sunday night and only 7 last night.

I have to admit I am really feeling in despair over my weight and my lack of energy and my lack of "will power" to always choose right. Some days are good, but then I swear the next day I feel like I am starving. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?? Why do I always feel hungry? I feel like crying.

Yesterday my calories were 1830. Today they are already over 1000 and it is only 3:20. I want to go walking tonight, but honestly I feel like I am wasting my time. My legs are so sore when I am done and I am getting NO results. Yesterday morning I did a 20 minute Richard Simmons video that got my heart rate up for brief time and I sweated really well. I just want some noticeable results. Is that too much to ask for? I know I have a really bad attitude about this today.

I didn't quit!

I intended to update by now, but the week has flown by. I have not weighed in again because it is that "time of the month" and I don't want to get discouraged if I haven't lost anything if you know what I mean. So, I am waiting until said time passes. Because of said time, I have been having cravings and it has been a really HARD week. I have struggled with writing things down because I have been doing more "grazing." Also, I only walked 3 times in the last week because we have all had things going on. I am hoping to walk tonight, even if I have to go alone.

I am about to go out of town on Tuesday for 5 days and I am anxious about that. I am bringing a case of water with me and plenty of healthy snacks to help keep me on track. The hotel probably has a fitness center so I am hoping to hit the treadmill whenever possible or maybe just swimming laps.

If I decide to weigh in Monday then I will be here with an update, otherwise it may not be until I return from my trip. Until next time.....

The Doctor

Yesterday the Dr. called to tell me about my bloodwork. Liver and kidneys- good. Cholesterol- normal. Good Cholesterol is low so he recommended eating nuts and salmon several times a week. Yippee, I get to go to Sam's Club and buy a big bag of salmon- yummy! My A1C was 6.5. He said it was good for me and since I am taking 1000mg of Metformin now he expects it to be lower next time. I can't wait to surprise him with my weight loss- whatever it is- by the time I go back in September.

I walked 7 laps around the track last night. My legs felt like jello when I left. For some reason last night's walk was rough to get through. Every now and then I had to let out a groan of some sort as if to release the pain from my calves. I didn't do any jogging last night because I ate too soon before arriving, but I did do 400 meters of runing on Monday night.

I am bloated and starting my cycle so I am fighting all sorts of cravings. Craving when you are on a mission to eat healthier just really stinks! I did make a FANTASTIC discovery at Super Walmart though- they have SINGLE SERVING Hagaan Daaz ice cream! Thank you God! I can indulge without having to measure ice cream or have more sitting around for me to think about eating. I can have my treat, write it down and move on.

Also, a great treat that will help me get my good cholesterol up is Almonds. They only have 5 calories each.

Weigh Day

I weighed in this morning at 250. That's 2 more pounds down for a total of 10 since June 17th. I am trying to be more excited, but I was really hoping to be below that 250 mark! Oh well, two pounds is fine. It would be ideal for me if I could lose 3 pounds per week for a total of 12 per month then by the end of the year I would be 3/4 to my goal.

I am going to reduce my calories by 100 per day and look for some more lower calorie snacks to keep my blood sugar level between meals. I am also entertaining thoughts of doing an exercise video or two at home each week in addition to walking with the girls.

I found some great tasting sugar free popsicles at Super Walmart. They are the "Popcicle" brand and they are only 15 calories each. They do not taste sugar free! I am also having plain (except for sea salt) pop corn as a snack. Popcorn keeps my fingers busy while I watch TV. LOL I have started only eating one piece at a time instead of grabbing a handful at a time. One in my mouth at a time slows me down and allows me to feel fuller faster because I am eating slower. Anything to trick myself!

This morning's breakfast was an apple and a plain blueberry bagel.

Eating Out

I ate out tonight. It was kind of scary, but I think I did well. I drank ice water with lemon. I ate a garden salad. It was not huge and it had tomatoes, onions, carrots and egg over iceberg lettuce. I got Blue Cheese dressing on the side and just dipped my fork in the dressing before taking a bite from the salad. I only used about half of the dressing in the little cup by doing it that way, thus cutting down on the calories that dressing can load onto a salad.

In addition to the salad I had 5 chicken drumettes. They were yummy. I guestimated on the calories at 100 a piece. I don't care if I am right or wrong. I have had a very good day calorie wise and I treaded water for quite a while at the pool today. Nothing that got my heart rate up, but I was moving!

All in all I feel good about today. Tomorrow I may dust off an old exercise video and see if I can keep up. Monday is weigh in and I am hoping to see at least 2 more pounds gone!