In actuality, I know exactly what got me to where I am. I am an emotional eater. The weight gain started after the birth of my second son. I actually went to my pre-pregnancy weight after I had him, but emotional stress brought on a gradual weight gain. When my second son was 18 months old my Daddy passed away and my way of coping was eating and shopping. Since 1997 I have gained an average of 10 pounds a year. Along the way I have lost 30 here and 30 there only to gain them back and another 10. To the point where now I am 254 pounds! YIKES! That makes my goal weight 154, which may sound like too much to some, but I have about 8 pairs of jeans that would fit me at that weight!! Ideally, I would like to get down to 145 because that is what I weighed when in this picture here:
On the right is my current weight. Ugh. It is so hard to look at. I know I am now 37 and things may not go back exactly as they were. I have more than a weight loss goal though. I want to feel good and healthy again. I am tired of being tired. I want to ride bikes with my boys, go on hikes without getting winded. Chase the ball around the back yard with the boys and not quit 5 minutes later because I can't breathe. I also have a "size" goal. I want to be a size 12 again. 10 would be excellet, but 12 would be great and I would be satisfied. I could also more easily maintain being a size 12 I think. In the picture above I was wearing a size 11 Levi. When I wore those jeans I also fit into a size 9 tight Bongo jeans. LOL Remember those? Yeah, and I still have both those pairs in my closet. Wearing the 11 Levi's would be the ultimate size victory for me!
So, where does the $1000 come in? My Grampy issued me a challenge - via email. At first I felt slightly insulted and mad. After thinking about it briefly I realized that he is not a person who expresses himself easily and I took his email in the spirit I believe he meant it. He is concerned about me and my mother (who he also issued the challenge to) and he doesn't like seeing us so overweight and unhealthy. I believe it worries him. So, he said if I lost 100 pounds by June 1, 2010 and no less than 100 that he would give me $1000. I plan on going to the outlet mall in San Marcos and buying a whole new wardrobe!! I am going to Dress Barn to the REGULAR SIZE side, Levi Strauss, Charlotte Russe, Old Navy and Nieman Marcus (for some biz attire). I will probably get new shoes too since I will be able to wear heels again!
Even though this blog is dated June 28, 2009 I started this new lifestyle on Thursday June 18, 2009. My current weight is 254. I will be reporting in when I weigh in and when I need to vent or brag! Until next time.......
Mary
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